dear clive;

you make it sound so simple;

i am learning it is anything but.

i will not lose heart.

"when i have learnt to love God better than my earthly dearest, i shall love my earthly dearest more than i do now. inso far as i learn to love my earthly dearest at the expense of God or instead of God, i shall be moving to the state in which i do not love my earthly dearest at all. when first things are put first second things are not suppressed but increased." clive staples lewis

twenty one.